My Motto

One does not discover New Lands without consenting to lose sight of the Shore for a Very Long time. ~Andre Gide

I stumbled across this quote shortly after a car wreck permanently changed my life in December of 2001. It has been slow, but I have made a much better recovery than expected and most people never notice that I have some lingering injuries. I spent the first couple of years post-accident trying desperately & in vain to get my old familiar life back. When I found the quote, I was thinking of it as a motivation to work even harder to recover the old me so that I could head off traveling and exploring the world. Eventually I came to think of it as learning to let go of our old lives and embrace the new opportunities we have been given - no matter how badly we DON'T want those opportunities. Believe me, I REALLY didn't want those opportunities! I just wanted to be me again. My guess is that you all can relate to that desire. Anyhow, I didn't get the old me back (I still miss her sometimes). What I did get was different experiences, more friends, a different perspective on life, better friendships because I learned how quickly life can be gone, a new hometown, and less afraid to be myself. I have learned how to let go of the old and embrace the new. My life is different now and in many ways it is better. 

I am at yet another undesirable forced life change. This unwanted "gift" I have been given has made the old impossible to ever have again and is presenting new "opportunities" almost daily. I learned from that car wreck that fighting the inevitable is useless, so I will do my best to embrace this and make the most of the opportunities I've been given. Opportunities to meet others dealing with similar issues, to share my story with people who might otherwise feel alone, and to hopefully prevent my friends kids from ever dealing with the same thing. 

May we all have the courage to let go of the old and discover the "New Lands" ahead of us.

An Introduction

Hello all, I'm August. I just turned 37 this month (thus the name) and prior to July of this year, I would have sworn up and down that I've never had an STD/STI in my entire life. So much for that. I have HPV - the cancer causing kind. I found out about it as my doctor was insisting I had to make an appointment pretty much immediately to have the plethora of pre-cancerous cells on my cervix frozen before they progressed further. How in the heck did that happen??? Yes, I know, sex. That wasn't the question. How in the heck did I go from carefree to worrying about cancer? I thought this type of cancer moved slowly. Just over a year ago I had a completely normal pap and now we're talking about cancer, HPV, and freezing my cervix??? Somehow, somewhere, I fell down the rabbit hole and have found myself in a very strange world where nothing is as it should be.


Who am I (besides a woman with HPV)? I am a daughter, a sister, a sponsor of two Compassion International children, Mom to two dogs & a cat (all rescues), a horse lover, country music enthusiast, gardener, explorer of new places, and will always be a farm girl at heart. And I am pleased to meet all of you. May you all have a blessed day.